Sometimes i wonder how much one person can hide

Fuck Everything.

i hate this feeling.. you know the one, when you’re shaking with anger, where you’re frusterated yet you’re sad. where every possibility flows into your mind.

i wonder what is really going on since you don’t have the courage to really tell me.

hm… god there is so much going wrong. i can’t prove it but i’m sure there is someone else, almost 100% sure.

the fact that you do whatever you can to avoid talking to me.

i know you’re hiding something. why can’t you just fucking do what i tell you? just ONCE.

i’m not asking much here.

i just don’t know. i can’t… WON’T date a women who is embarassed of me either.

That feeling when your heart hurts..

ever gotta wonder what someone is hiding

Hm..

wow i have so much mixed feelings, this can’t be good for my health, my heart hurts so much right now.

i wanna break up yet i don’t.

it seems every day you find some way to piss me off with the smallest things, mostly by ignoring my calls. this shit is long distance. its not like we’re going to see each other the next day in school or anything. seriously? you won’t take my fucking calls because you’re in the god damn doctors office. just because your fucking grandpa who’s opinion shouldn’t even fucking matter about us would hear, a real girlfriend wouldn’t care about what other people think about us, wouldn’t care if other people heard us talking. she wouldn’t act like shes too good for me cause other people are around.

She wouldn’t act like shes ashamed to be with me.

yet on the other hand, there are moments like last night. where everything is calm and we are together. everything is great. but slowly i’m noticing less and less of those times.

if you want to break up, don’t ignore me and put me 2nd to everything.

just do it.

Why’s it always about treating “her” right?

jaydenh0lmes:

tits—and—tattoos:

ayolucas:

All I ever see here is about treating “her” right, making “her” happy and being everything “she” wants  you to be. What about us guys? Treating people right goes both ways you know, not just for women. What about us guys? Where’re our “treat him right” posts? Not every girl treats her guy right, not every girl makes him right. Not every guy is the player you make us out to be, but then again, not every girl is a sweet innocent angel.

this^

time to start tumblin again.

cause i have alot to fuckin say.

i don’t want it to end but i may have to.

The Nameless Monster

Once upon a time, there lived a nameless monster.
The monster was dying to have a name so badly.
So the monster decided to set out on a journey to find itself a name.
But the world was such a large place.
So the monster split into two and went on two separate journeys.
One went to the East and the other went to the West.
The monster that went to the east found a village.

There was a blacksmith at the village entrance.
“Mr.Blacksmith, please give me your name” said the monster.
“I can’t give you my name” replied the blacksmith.
“If you give me your name I will jump inside you and make you stronger in return.” said the monster.
“Really? I’ll give you my name if you can make me stronger.”, the blacksmith told the monster.
The monster jumped inside the blacksmith.
The monster became Otto the blacksmith.
Otto the blacksmith was the strongest man in the village.
But one day he said:
“Look at me! Look at me!”
“The monster inside of me is getting bigger.”
*munch, munch, chomp, chomp, gobble, gobble, gulp*
The hungry monster ate Otto from the inside out.

The monster then went back to become a monster without a name.

The monster then went to a castle to find a wonderful name.
Inside the castle, there was a very sick boy.
“I’ll make you stronger if you give me your name” said the monster
In reply, the boy told him “I’ll give you my name if you can cure my illness and make me stronger.”
So the monster jumped inside the boy.
The boy became very healthy.

The King was delighted.
“The prince is well! The prince is well!” said the King.
The monster became fond of the boy’s name.
He also grew fond of his life inside the castle.
That’s why he endured even when he became hungry.
Every day, even when his stomach became very empty, he endured.
But then he became so hungry….
“Look at me! Look at me!” said the boy.
“The monster inside of me has grown this big!”
The boy then ate his father, servants, and everyone.
*munch, munch, chomp, chomp, gobble, gobble, gulp*
Because everyone was gone….
The boy left on a journey
He walked and walked for days…..

One day the boy met the monster that went west
“I have a name” said the boy.
“It’s a wonderful name.”
And then the monster that went west said…
“I don’t need a name.”
“I’m happy just the way i am.”
“thats what we are nameless monsters.”
The boy ate the monster that went west.
Even though he now had a name….
There was no one left to call him by it.

Such a Shame…
Because Johan.
Was such a wonderful name.